I was thinking about how everyone is hurting. Now I know that sounds like I am making general assumption but think about it the economy is in a recession and we ‘little people’ don’t have any say in this at all, and summer, the time that should be a happy time, has turned into a very strained time of year because you can’t go anywhere because of gas and airfare sure isn’t much better. So I was thinking why doesn’t everyone join together like we did on 9/11? I sure have no idea because I know that everyone should help one another when they are going to have to start putting a five dollar bill in the gas tank. Now I know that I am having a hard time with this because I wanted this summer to be awesome! I mean like my family and I could go to see our state more and more because we haven’t been very stable in the summer in a long time. But it reminds of books that I read where a girl wants to steal a boy from another girl but when the other girl dumps the boy then the girl doesn’t want him anymore. I mean I wanted to stay in my state but I didn’t understand that I am basically quarantined and now I want to go everywhere just to see if I can. And my parents have been saying that I am starting to think like an adult which means I let myself down easy before I am turned down. For example I wanted to got to Six Flags with my church’s youth group but I remembered how much amusement parks cost and then I thought about spending money and decided to forget about it. I mean at least that would be better. And earlier this year I danced but then my dance teacher moved to a studio farther out and all the time we would have to fill up the tank to go and my mom would say things like how we are spending oodles and oodles of money on gas because of my dance and then my grandma would come into town and make it worst by saying “When is dance over because this is costing your parents a lot of money to take you to dance three times a week.” and I loved I mean LOVED dancing especially ballet and people told me I was good and I just got back my exam grades and they were awesome for my first time and I had just gotten on pointe. But unfortunately I had to let myself down easy my teacher cried when I left and I couldn’t bring myself to say that I just couldn’t afford it. I know feel bad for asking for anything I mean ANYTHING because I know that first there is and ecologic footprint that might belong to bigfoot for my family and things cost MONEY! So before I do anything I have to ask myself can I earn this money without taking from my siblings because I have 4 siblings that follow behind me who may I don’t know want to see a movie and if I want to go to dance camp that costs four hundred dollars that’s a lot less movie money. Now most people might say that I shouldn’t worry about these things but being a considerate person I do. A lot. I know that I might have this glass half full thing going for me but I just don’t think that will last much longer when I live in the suburbs now and stoplights don’t do much for the gas tank and that is the goal I can’t ask with and easy heart to go out and see a movie unless I have that money already at my hand and I can’t get a minimum wage job until I am 14 and I am 13 so that is out of the question unless I am just that good that people would break laws for me. But what I don’t understand at all is why people seem so shocked that I don’t notice because it’s all around me always I am always passing by gas stations that fluxuate but never decrease. I can’t stand it and it’s not like there’s anything I can do about it. I have to just suck it up and make sure that carpooling is an option and even then that I have money to do what I want to do because nothing is mandatory and what isn’t I should pay for but the problem is no single person can afford to pay me anyway because they are feeling the exact same way and Starbucks is closing like 200 stores and American Airlines are firing 900 flight attendantsa and Anheiser Busch is closing it’s plant in St. Louis so there aren’t really gonna be any jobs and me being a person of limited knowledge I can’t even blame someone so that I can write a scathing letter to them and tell them that it hurts me maybe more that it hurts certain adults. I hate that it’s come to this resorting to blogging to let people know how you feel but there isn’t this openness that there used to be because everyone is trying to hide the fact that having more that 2 kids is getting expensive and they are not noticing that when you tell your teenager to go get a job and they don’t that more that likely means they CAN’T because adults need those jobs and they are trying to keep them because that have to eat too.

Well I just wanted to know how hard it is to live anywhere today I know there are worst places to live that the USA butI can’t really feel sorry for them as much as I used to because it isn’t much better I mean there is a war going on and everything is going up which means self care is going down because people can’t afford to care for themselves but it’s been like this in different era’s my dad said it was like this when he was a kid and that was in the ’70s it’s just not right.

You’re Not Alone 

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